农村纪实卷首语 - 乡村风/countryside

我已经是很难得回农村一次了。我想将来回农村的可能性也是比较微茫的。趁着记忆还没有太淡漠，记下那段有痛有欢笑的历史。过了这么多年后记起以前的东西，因为不在彼时彼地，现在的心态会有稍许的变化，并不能复述当时的心理。

我知道自己在生活里，只是随着一个大目标去奋斗。对于生活的细节，确实常常粗枝大叶，或许也因此失了生活的一些情趣，失了一些清晰的记忆。但无论如何，这经过挖掘的记忆是不会跟真的生活有太大的出入的。

藉着这一点点的记忆，或许我也期望着找回以前的一些快乐，一些温暖。我发觉自从出来后，在城市里，因为一些不经意的比较，常常想起以前的心酸痛苦，常常心底泛起一些冷漠。这是一种心态，好长时间都不能调整过来。凭着回忆的延续，或许我能重塑自己的心态，自信的面对这差距。也是应该挑战自己曾经的生活背景，突破自己生活所赋予的局限，真正的超越自己。

另外，如果有时间思考，可能做一些对农村，农村人和农村事务的反思。以来希望大家更了解，二来也是为了寻找一条出路。

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I came from faraway village surrounded by hills. Nowadays I am studying in Sinagpore and rarely go back home. I think even in the future I won't have much time staying in my home town.

I just want to write down some stories that happened before to record the happiness and sadness which are so cherishable for me. However some happend so many years ago that I cannot really repeat the history exactly as it was.

I just hope that I could gather as many pieces of memory as possible and then add in my explanation to make it as a whole story. I know me myself was not a very sensitive man that can notice the details of life. I usually set a big goal and then strive for it. And I always ignore many details of my dailylife, thus I may miss many interesting things of life and cannot remember a clear picture of what has happend. Anyway most of the stories are just the dailylife that I lived before, so there won't be too much difference from the coutryside life.
I also hope that when I am recalling these memories, I would find many more happy and warm stories. These years, when I am staying in city, I compare myself with the city life, most of the time I recalled the bitness of life before. I know this is not good for me to build a good attitude towards life. I hope this may help me to relieve the bitness and rebuild myself and my confidence in life.
If possible, I would do some serious thinking on countryside issues, countryman's life. To let people know more about their life and also to find a way to solve the problems.