The alarm clock was set at 830am, but when I woke up it was already 10 plus. 8 hours of sleep, again. I stopped the alarm in my dream, again.
I had a dream last night. These days I must be having a lot of dreams because I did not get rejuvenated after so many hours of sleep. This time I remembered the dream, a few minutes afte I woke up, i kept recalling the story and scenes in my dream.
The first scene I remembered is when my parents arrived outside my hostel. I knew they were on the way but I am sort of unprepared...I was attending something before that, seemed a discussion, rounds and rounds, as if to solve some problems. FZ, Jhn..were present.
The most striking scene was that when I went down to fetch my parents. I was "describing" a picture of a house in my mind, a huge building that made of earth, yellow in colour, closing up the opening of a volcano, a silent volcano. It blends into the whole dry natural scene seamlessly, with breath taking scale at the site. Somehow it become my hostel, the place i live.
The silence of the huge earthy volcano, resided deep into the fear and tension...
I talked to my parents when they were in my room, and I started planing when I am going to bring them to visit and where I can find a place to help them settle down...
I still remebered the volcano, the silent outward appearance. but it is a volcano, waiting for next sudden explosion. It is the feeling of living at the mouth of the volcano...
Like a tentative small flower, where is the wind going to blow me to? ... Could I just jump out the this well of endless entangled? ... Pessimism makes me sad.
I refuse to ponder on the complexes. It never gets clear with stoning.
The next I can do is just do it, to boost the confidence with a positive and constructive mind.
Anyway, half of the life is pain and the other half the pleasure.
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 wawa 在 2/28/2005 4:39:43 PM 说:
hehe, not becos of the heat or mosquito...
wawa 在 2/28/2005 4:38:43 PM 说:
yzy, last night the chiken wings i cooked were soooo tasty... what a pity you did not open your door and eat them...
blueberry 在 2/27/2005 12:54:24 PM 说:
yzy,u r so cute :D
yzy 在 2/27/2005 3:09:16 AM 说:
wawa,i went down to look for u twice, but u were not in. did anything trouble u? sorry to be a bad listener.
方遒 在 2/26/2005 4:57:30 PM 说:
Life is like a volcano--it may be dead, may be quiet for decades before explosion, or may just burn constantly and end up with nothing but ashes, burying all the lands that have once been prosperous.
blueberry 在 2/26/2005 4:45:19 PM 说:
is it bcos ur room too hot?
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