As I watched Sex and CIty last night, and the perfect relationship between Carrie and Eden, the smooth sailing romance... I couldn't help but wonder, is mine such a relationship? There're no kinks here and there. We seem to be the perfect match for each other. On some level, we do like a reflection of each other. I'm not saying we don't have small fractions occasionally but we've yet to have a fight that lasts longer than ten mins. It's literally smooth sailing all these two months. And without the ups and downs that we all believe are the essential parts of a true love story, is this too good to be true? Or is it going anywhere?

Yesterday I started to have this idea that we probably have met too early in our lives. We should wait until we're of some suitable eligible age so that we don't have to risk years in which major problems may tear us apart, and get married as soon as we fall in love.

SInce he's been busy with his attachment, I've been spending most of the time in the hall. And when he gets back from work, he does make an effort to spend time with me - - maybe not as much as he spends in front of computer with DOTA... But I've known guys well enough now to understand this aspect of men. But another issue is, I realize, although we seem to understand each other excellently, we lack of serious talks. I don't really mean serious, but you know, emotional talks now and then. In which we snuggle up comfortably and talk about days and things and feelings. But now it's like when he's ready to sleep, he's already too tired to listen to me. And being an understanding and supportive girlfriend, I know better than to disturb him and deny him a few hours of sleep he barely gets everyday. So no talking. And the irony is, I do appreciate his effort to listen to me and always asks me about my feelings when I show even a slight sign of depress... even when he's half asleep.... I find it difficult sometimes to tell him the truth, Like I'm just having a mood swing, I want you to spend time talking to me instead of playing DOTA, I want you tell me your past and stupid things like that. I realize I've been portraying and trying to be too good a girlfriend that I actually am scared of showing the "bad" side of me, the immature whiny sentimental emotional moron side of me.

Another thing is... I don't know why in this relationship many things remind me of my past. All those small little details. I didn't exactly have this problem before. It's sometimes almost like, since I know he'll be reminded of her so I'll think about my own one too.

Well maybe it's just too much watching of Sex and City...