The last mid-term for this semester ended 20 minutes ago. My hope on getting a good overall mark for ECO206 is thus gone with the wind.

I also wanna kill myself for oversleeping and therefore not having time to revise this afternoon. When I saw the question "Write down and prove the 5 conditions for achieving efficiency in a competitive market", immediately I knew it was somewhere in my notes, I knew the prof purposely did a recap last week -- but that's all I knew. And there goes my precious 25 marks. And I'm sure there's more to lose.

However, the strange thing is that I'm not feeling too upset, although this test was really a disaster and my GPA is at stake. This is what really alarmed me. 

How come?? Am I becoming less aspirant? Losing my resolution to excel?

Let me study like a nerd from now on.

It's devastating when one tries to digest what's been taught in the past two months, and realizes that there're many questions that she doesn't know how to do. The test is impending and she has no one to turn to for help...

55555...我要洁纯啊...

In 'Good Will Hunting', Will said to a pompous guy from Harvard,"You dropped a hundred and fifty grand on an education you could have picked up for a dollar fifty in late charges at the Public Library."

 I absolutely agree, as right now I'm trying to self-study the textbook in preparation for next week's STA261 exam. I wonder why I should still pay the tuition fees when I hardly attend the classes and virtually learn everything on my own.

I think it IS definitely possible to become a self-educated actuary(or any other professional).

But the problem is, who has the guts to quit school?

大年初一，凌晨4点才睡的我在8点又爬起来为ACT247抱最后一次的佛脚。

9点45分，视死如归地出门去考试。迎面遇到一个一起上lecture的同学，好奇地问了声“你去哪里？”。结果原来她也去考试。原来胡乱assume考试的地方就是上课的地方是不对的。差点就考不成了，好险。

11点45分，考试早已结束，我以化悲愤为食量之势吃着mac&cheese。其实早就做好心理准备了，只是考前免不了还存有侥幸拿高分的美好愿望。这样也好，给自己敲个警钟。下一周reading week一定把拉下的东西都补上来。

他今天也刚考完CSC，据说不坏。心胸宽阔的我心里除了有点愤愤不平，还是很替他开心的。

下午的法语课竟然是最枯燥的评讲试卷，于是毫无意外地，我坐在教室里沉沉睡去。

下课后，一边走在回宿舍的路上，一边欣赏久违了两个星期的大雪。刚想酝酿一两句浪漫的咏雪诗句，一不小心脚下一滑，顷刻间整个人就扑通地坐到了地上。。。而且那一刻我一个男邻居在前面两米处目睹了整个过程。 摔倒摔疼是小事，损了我淑女形象是大事啊！>_<（想想这算是我生平第二次在雪地上摔倒。第一次是去年底下第一场雪的时候。雪下面结冰实在是件很讨厌的事。）

试没考好，走路摔倒，早上起来还开始有点咳嗽，为什么我的大年初一会这样？

不管怎样，农历新的一年就这样开始了。

而我的心里，莫名其妙地充满了感恩。

Save me God from the stupid French dictation!

The TA made up all the new sentences. It was so hard that my mind simply went blank when he uttered one after another strange sound which I could by no means decipher.

I think I was being complacent before today. Gotta work harder, and kill French before it kills me...

Played pingpong for three to four hours last night. Woke up at eight to go jogging this morning.

My muscles are aching again.

But I'm so proud of myself, yeah...

刚才收到母亲大人的情报，爸爸又开始抽烟了。于是我义不容辞地拨通爸的手机。本来打算凶巴巴地质问他，结果电话那头的反应又是一阵“嘿嘿”，闹得我再也凶不起来了。

唉。

为什么男人要吸烟啊？？

在此忠告所有男同胞们：请不要吸烟。你也许不知道，那些爱你关心你的人，因为你抽烟的样子而心疼。

(再写下去就有煽情的嫌疑了，就此打住。做assignment去也~~）

I attended the Ideal Exchange session for Frontier College this evening. We were supposed to share our tutoring experiences with our fellow tutors, and as lucky as always, I happened to be the first one to speak without any preparation. So I stammered...I seriously need to practise my oral English more often and, have more self-confidence. I still remember guorui's advice before my scholarship interview:"Be aggressively confident". Ah,that's a bit hard. How I wish I were as thick-skinned as those guys. =P

Anyway, it's delightful to meet so many nice people there.

And I watched the video of the CUA(Chinese Undergrad Association in our school, which I didn't join)Karaoke Competition just now. Wow, the top three are really good. I think the other girl who sang《阴天》is awesome too, although I don't really like the decadent style of 莫文蔚.

There are so many talented people in this world.

That's precisely what makes this world so interesting.

The World's Greatest       by R.Kelly

My muscles(or fats??)are aching.   I felt sooooo reluctant to get up this morning, and was so tired that I dozed off in ACT class. Sigh, I really had not been exercising for too long, even a little jogging seemed to be overloading.

But this forces me to keep exercising -- I played table tennis again this afternoon. 'cos I know if I don't, I'll have to experience the same pain again after I go to HH this coming weekend. 

A healthy lifestyle doesn't come easy. Good luck to me.