Even I have so many things to do, I still have to write this blog... otherwise I will never find a time to write...

Today ends my 2nd interview of my 2nd attempt to apply for NOC. I'm not sure this is a good thing or bad thing, I seems lost the enthusiasm and passion I used to have last semester when I just embarked my first time application. Though I may have failed to convey as much as interest to my interviewers, I feel I become more matured and be able to treat the whole application process more calmly.

The interview this time went much less smooth than last time. After the interview, I told XK that I have "悪い感じ"... My interviewers are two male professors. Though I do feel their questions are not easy to answer, I did find ways to answer and show my abilities. However, one of them at last commented that many PRC students they have sent for the program do no bring good feedback for NUS and how can I assure I am not one of them. At the spot, I did not say much. After the interview, when I think back this question, somehow I feel disturbed. Though I already get used to competing with Singaporeans at a much more difficult ground, and envying all opportunites that are only exclusive to them, I feel sad that even the program that I want to go so much categorizes people by their nationalities but not their personality and ability.

I sent e mails to discuss this problem with the professor who interviewed me after that, and got reply as well. He explained that it is unavoidable that our seniors' behavior will affect their impression to PRC students and make selection process more stringent for us, but they are not excluding all PRC students from joining NOC Program. His points make sense, and it is what many people will do because it is convenient and simple. Like I have just learned from my Human Relations class, this is a typical case of using mental shortcut which lead to availability heuristic and stereotyping. I know the professor is not purposely impose biases on PRC students, but he is actually doing it.

Of course, I could complain it is not fair,  but nothing is fair in this world. I have done everything I could do to apply for NOC program. If I get in this time, I will treat everyone who read my this blog sweets (provided I can meet you personally) ^_^. If I did not get in, I shall continue with my SEP to Chinese U of HK next semester... should be another wonderful time to look forward to...